For my sins I’m currently the Poet Laureate for St Ives. I was appointed following the submission of the following poem in a competition.
Gone
Although you’re gone,
I still see you.
I can hear your laughter as I descend the stairs,
glimpse your smile as a stranger turns towards me
and you still come to me
in my dreams,
more achingly alive than anything in the waking world.
I still feel the shiver of your touch
when your sister holds my hand,
still smell you as I bend down
to lift the clothes from the laundry basket.
And yet,
you’re not here.
And whilst I roam the earth like a ghost, growing
paler and fading
you,
embalmed in the honeyed amber of death,
stay forever young
and have become immortal.
For Carol 1954 – 2017
I miss everything
Your smile, your voice, our sister fights
The cold dark nights without you
I miss you stealing my clothes
And me then finding those
On the floor in your bedroom
I miss everything
Us watching Father of the Bride
Until the bit where we both always cried
I loved that scene
You’d tell me
As you went to make tea
When I really wanted coffee
I miss everything
Your playing the big sister card and being all hard
Still treating me like a twelve-year-old
While my own child hugged my knees
You carried the cracked vase of our family safely in your arms
Told us love would withstand
Whatever life threw at us
And that even though you would no longer be with us
The glue would hold
Sex
I like sex.
As long as it’s with the right person
And they have a good sense of humour,
Although not while we’re doing it…
That would never do.
Nor would the sound of children
Whispering outside the door –
“I think Mummy’s dying!
Shall we call a priest?”
I like sex,
Although it needs some friction.
Two bodies,
Oiled by lust.
I love the feel
Of skin on skin.
The slipperiness
Of our love.
I like sex.
But I also like tea,
And sometimes I think,
If I had to choose,
I would rather have tea.
I like sex.
Coffins
Coffins are like ships
Borne by a river of hands
Sliding down into port
Anchored at last in the earth
Worms dance attendance on us
Anxious to relief us
Of our heavy coats of flesh
Reducing us down
To a bacterial mess
Unless of course
You plump for a hamper
Like going to a picnic
Your friends clustering round
Sipping dry sherry
Admiring the roses in their beds
As birds in the trees
Drop shit upon their heads
I’m going out to the strains
Of The Great Escape
Sequing perhaps into
Don’t Stop Me Now
I‘m having such a good time
I’m having a ball
Freddie would definitely want a say
So, who am I to deny him?
I’ll slide into the oven
The way
Steve McQueen slid into
That barbed wire
On his motorbike